tomorrow = beta day.

And I'm nervous as all get out. I keep waffling back and forth between feeling really optimistic and then feeling really realistic. Probably because I've literally had 3 years of BFNs (minus that one time) that part of my brain finds it highly unlikely that anything I've been feeling over the past week could possibly lead to anything but another BFN. You just become programmed to think that way after 3 years. Goes back to that self preservation thing I mentioned before. My body has tricked me numerous times over the past 3 years into thinking I was pregnant, why would this month be any different?

Anyways, tomorrow I will know for sure. Finally. I go in at 7:15am but probably won't hear back from the nurse until the afternoon, so I will post an update as soon as I hear anything.

I still haven't POAS either. I contemplated it over the weekend but was terrified of seeing another stark white test. I figured with what little hope I do have, that I might as well preserve it as long as possible.

Hopefully today will fly by and tomorrow will be here before I know it. Although I probably won't sleep a wink tonight.