i'm just a tad neurotic.

So I have a confession. I went to the doctor's office today. For a doppler heartbeat check. Because I'm crazy. And paranoid. And an infertile. But all is well and little one had a nice strong heartbeat in the 170s. And I feel so much better.

It started yesterday. I got to thinking about how far away my next appointment was and I was feeling down. I hear of so many other ladies on the boards whose doctor's are so accommodating and have told them, "call any time you are feeling anxious and we will check on the baby for you." My nurses kept telling me, "your next u/s isn't until 20 weeks" like that was the end all be all.

I had to go in for bloodwork anyways (it's not done there in the office, but I had to go there to pick up the scripts and then go upstairs for the bloodwork), and since I was feeling anxious, I called and asked them if I could have a doppler check. Luckily, the nurse that called me back was really nice. She told me I was welcome to come in, but not to freak out if we don't find it since I'm only 10w3d. She told me because I was thin though, we might have a better chance.

So I got there. The nurse took me back. Warned me again that we might not hear it. And I kid you not, within 5 seconds of putting the wand on my belly, we heard that loud, fast, beautiful sound. It was wonderful and so reassuring. It was right in the 170 range and sounded like it was moving around a lot, which is probably because I ate some cookies right before I left.

I left there with a huge smile on my face. Actually, I still have one plastered on my face, who am I kidding. What a wonderful day.

And it makes me excited because one of my good friends, who we're going to visit next weekend, has a doppler that she is willing to let me borrow for a while. So I'm thinking that because the nurse was able to find the heartbeat so easily and without much poking and prodding, maybe I will have the same luck. Plus, I will be more than a week further along than I am now, which just means the baby will be even higher in my belly by then (and easier to hear).

So much to be excited about!