feeling down.

I've been feeling down in the dumps this weekend.  I suspect it's because of all the drama yesterday and the fact that I just can't shake the feeling that this current cycle is going down the tubes.

I hate knowing as much as I do about this IF crap.  I wish I had never even asked about my E2 levels.  And from now on, I think I won't ask for them anymore.  It's not like me knowing them would change anything.  It's not like I could say, wow, that's low, let me call the RE and tell him I don't trust his training and judgement and that I think he's wrong.  All it's done is stress me out.

So starting Monday, I am adhering to the "ignorance is bliss" rule when it comes to my b/w.  No more numbers.

Now if I can just get through this weekend.