bf isn't easy.

This BF thing is turning out to be a lot harder than I thought it would be. Funny thing is, we aren't having the typical issues. Like latching problems. Or weight gain problems.

No, it seems that Nate is allergic to something in my diet. We're not quite sure what yet. But we are going on a full week now of bloody, mucusy, green poops. Which the pedi thought last week was most likely a dairy allergy. So she suggested I cut out all dairy from my diet. I've been dairy free for about a week now and his poos aren't getting any better. In fact, I thought they were looking worse over the weekend. It seemed to me they had turned more to diarrhea, but still with the blood and green mucus.

I'm getting really frustrated. First and foremost, I want Nate to feel better. Obviously, his stomach is upset by whatever I'm eating. I'm also finding this dairy free diet to be really tough. It basically eliminates everything I love to eat. I could handle it when all I restricted from my diet was certain medications, alcohol, and caffeine. But not being able to drink milk, eat ice cream, cheese, yogurt, butter, etc. is really wearing down on me. So now I'm contemplating switching him to a specialty formula. That way he'll get the allergy free diet he needs and I won't have to limit my own. I'm going to talk to the pedi today at our appointment though and see what she thinks.

I hate feeling like a bad mother just because I want to stop BF. But at what point does your own sanity count for something?